if life give you lemons … you make lemonade …

if life gives you apples … you make apple juice …

if life gives you temptation … what do you make of it ???

usually … temptation sits on a balance with something equally of nature …

both with good and bad … both will give you what you want …

if a girl promise you a kiss … but you have to leave school …

then would you forfit education for the kiss of the girl ??

if you were promised education … but you have to forget the girl of your dreams

then will you overdose yourself on painkillers to forget the girl …

every situation seems impractical …

but every one is a heart stopper when your fate is intertwine with them …

its been a while since ive even thought about her …

yet last night i had a dream about girl … it was not a sweet dream … it wasnt a awesome dream …

nor was it a crazy dreams like those that i have had before …

she was in a car crash … and had died …

i personally know for sure that i have no more feelings for her …

yet when i knew that she had died … i cried …

i cried until i have no sound … i cried until i cant …

just that feeling of losing a friend … she might not take me as a friend … and i totally understand …

the things i did to her to get her attention were stupid …

but the thought of losing a friend is unbareable …

the dream i swore was so real … i thought of everything being real …

so much that once i had the chance i texted her to see if she’s ok … kind of in a denial stage …

once i sent the message … i thought to myself … wait this cant be right …

why am i on my bed …

then i remember it was all a dream … ive been sleeping all along …

she did later reply … although … she was just asking who i am …

once i told her she didnt bother replying me …

which is sort of a relief … atleast she’s not dead right ???

right …